Even though my divorce was finalized last week, there are still so many emotions, thoughts, memories and issues that I am dealing with. One big thing that I am still struggling with is the process of creating new traditions and not spending my time focused on the way things used to be. I had an absolutely wonderful Easter with my family and I enjoyed every single moment of it. However, throughout the day I couldn't help but think about all of the previous Easter's that I spent with H and his family. For the past 8 years, I have celebrated Easter by going to church with H's family and then having a huge family dinner with all of them. H and I would also exchange Easter baskets with each other and there was always a nice relaxing Easter morning run and an afternoon nap. We had wonderful Easter traditions and it is hard to not compare this year to years gone by. Creating new traditions is not an easy process and it feels a bit like wearing a brand new pair of sexy shoes...although you feel amazing in the new shoes, you can't deny that they pinch just a little bit. They are uncomfortable and new and fun and fantastic and irritating and weird all at the same time. Traditions must be broken in and given time to replace old memories. They need room to grow and flourish in order to replace the memories that are better off forgotten. Easter this year is a sweet memory of precious time with my family and I am looking forward to watching that tradition continue for many years to come.
(Above picture was borrowed from a gorgeous shoe poster by Steff Green and is available at allposters.com.)